One day back in August of 2020, I was using the shared laundry room in my condominium building when I saw what appeared to be a water stain on the drywall just above one of the baseboards. I pulled out my phone and snapped a picture, emailing it to our property manager with a message: I spotted this on the wall. I touched it and it’s soft and damp, so I think there’s a leak of some kind. Just informing you so you can send maintenance to look.
Two days later (not having received a response), I sent another email to say I’d discovered the probable source of the problem: a locked water-heater closet out back that had water dripping out the door and lots of water sounds inside. It backed right up to the damp spot on the laundry-room wall. The property manager responded and assured me he’d alert their maintenance guy—let’s call him “Billy”—to have a look.
Not long after, my upstairs neighbor informed me that her bathroom countertop and vanity had started to bow, and the cabinet below the sink felt warm and was showing traces of mold. As a renter, she’d complained to her landlord, who hired his own plumber to investigate. That plumber had come out a few times and found no issues in her plumbing to explain the vanity deformities or the mold. His report was passed on to our maintenance guy, Billy, who (supposedly) checked out my work order and said he found nothing wrong with the water-heater closet—claiming the problem had to be coming from the upstairs rental unit, despite the other plumber finding nothing there.
After about a month of this back-and-forth, another, downstairs neighbor, who travels for weeks at a time, returned home to find that all the framed pictures in his spare bedroom (the one closest to the water-heater closet) had slid down the drywall and crashed to the ground. His bathroom ceiling was also covered with mold.
Long story short: Billy had never bothered to get a key to unlock the water-heater closet and instead just quickly nosed around, called it good, and continued to blame the nonexistent plumbing issue upstairs. Had the water-heater leak been addressed when I reported it a month before, the fallout might have been minimal. Instead, after so much time had passed, there was extensive damage to multiple units, to the laundry room, to the hot water heater itself, and to its closet. You can imagine, then, how flabbergasted I was to learn that, instead of filing an insurance claim or calling in a professional remediation company, our property manager had just turned around and hired our friend Billy to fix the damage! Let me get this straight: this guy is the cause of the massive expense to our property, then gets to bill the homeowners’ association to fix it?! Unreal.
Every time I think about that story, it reminds me of the benzodiazepine situation. Providers in the medical system—psychiatrists, psychiatric nurse practitioners, PCPs, GYNs and other specialists—prescribe benzodiazepines that ultimately cause big problems. They put patients on the drugs long-term, which creates physical dependence and causes a totally preventable iatrogenic injury (albeit inadvertently and without malice). Often they refuse to acknowledge there is a problem at all, leaving it to patients to find and present the evidence on their own. And in order to fix the problem, patients must pay the same medical system to (painfully) undo it. It feels akin to driving over a spike strip on your way into the bay of an auto shop, then having to pay them to put on a set of new tires to restore your car to what it was when you drove in.
And in order to fix the problem, patients must pay the same medical system to (painfully) undo it. It feels akin to driving over a spike strip on your way into the bay of an auto shop, then having to pay them to put on a set of new tires to restore your car to what it was when you drove in.
I had a similar feeling back in 2010, when a negligent rehab center ripped me off benzodiazepines in a mere week, after I’d taken them for five years—sending me home to suffer the horrors of acute withdrawal on my own. Because I was too ill and nonfunctional from the rapid withdrawal to work, and my prior employer’s COBRA health insurance policy was ending, I needed to pay for private health insurance out of pocket (pre-Obamacare).
So I applied for individual coverage with Blue Cross Blue Shield (BCBS), the company that had insured me when I was employed—the same company that paid for the five-plus years of psychiatry visits and the prescriptions for two benzos and a Z-drug that had snared me in the nightmarish cobweb to begin with. But because I now had a diagnosis of “benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome,” BCBS opted to put me in the highest tier of risk, allowing them to charge me the steepest monthly premium to cover the “pre-existing condition” I was afflicted with. In other words, BCBS had funded the creation of the problem that resulted in so much sickness and need for medical services it could now be billed as “high risk.” How does that make any sense?
It is time we get the key, open the proverbial closet door, and look inside to examine what’s really happening. Just like the water heater that’s left to spew hot steam for a month, benzodiazepines in the long term ultimately just cause destruction. The current medical system is creating a chronic illness and is also, distressingly, a requisite for the “fix”— both at the expense of the patient.
It is time we get the key, open the proverbial closet door, and look inside to examine what’s really happening. Just like the water heater that’s left to spew hot steam for a month, benzodiazepines in the long term ultimately just cause destruction. The current medical system is creating a chronic illness and is also, distressingly, a requisite for the “fix”— both at the expense of the patient. You’d think after sixty-some years of this we’d finally understand that the simple solution is to just stop creating the problem in the first place.
How can we stop creating the problem?
1. Use safer alternative treatments first.
2. Follow existing guidelines and heed the black box warning, prescribing/taking benzodiazepines only when absolutely necessary and at the lowest dose for the shortest time possible (two to four weeks maximum, including the tapering off period, as some patients can become physically dependent in a week). Intermittent one-off uses are safest.
3. Always offer and obtain written, informed consent from the patient at the time of benzodiazepine prescription and before any attempts at cessation.
4. More comprehensive medical provider education.
5. Through legislative efforts. Recently, a bill passed in Colorado limiting the benzodiazepine supply that can be prescribed to a patient (with exceptions for those with specific conditions). There are similar ongoing legislative efforts in Massachusetts. Ideal legislation should require informed consent, limit new prescriptions to short term, and grandfather in those already physically dependent on long term benzodiazepines—ensuring that the decision to withdraw from the drug remains theirs, and that they have access to a prescription for as long as needed to complete a safe taper.
Hi Nicole.
LIke you, and following my doctors guidance, I took Benzo medication every day for five years.
The root cause of my minor health problem (occasional headaches) was simply that at the age of about 67, I was working too hard at my day job in computing. And, as of now, six years later following a slow taper I am experiencing the biggest withdrawal symptoms ever. I think it won’t be long before I get my first brain seizure. Sadly it still seems clear that there is absolutely NO medical treatment to handle Benzo Brain Damage health issues. Any help or advice you could offer me would be most welcome. Please visit my web site at ‘www,vbsg.ca’ on which I refer to myself as ‘DenzoBenzo’. Cheers.
This is very well said. I like your suggestions for how we stop creating the problem, agree with every single one of them. The next question is, how to we address those “orphans” as I’ve recently seen them called who were started on these medications long ago, assured they were safe and effective, not given informed consent or told of danger of chronic use. To the contrary, it was recommended. I think I’ve seen it on this site before, but while we’re teaching new doctors about the dangers of long term prescribing, we need also to teach them about the danger of forcing chronic benzo patients off a long term therapeutic dose on which they are stable. We are all different. Some do not experience debilitating symptoms until we attempt to discontinue, and then all hell breaks loose, no matter how slow the taper. It seema our brains have become irreversibly altered. In some cases, it is necessary to maintain a benzo dose in order to reduce suffering, increase functionality and have any quality of life. There is not a single thing I would like better than to be free of this drug, but it’s not working for me and I need for the same doctors who are not initiating any long term benzo prescriptions to not do more harm to me and those like me by not agreeing to maintain any prescriptions to those pre-existing “benzo orphans”. Benzos have harmed me, I am not the same person I was. But it is not the taking of them that made me suffer to the point of thinking I might not survive. It was NOT taking them that had this effect. There needs to be an acknowledgement of this, and respect for my choice. It’s not my first choice, it’s the only one that allows me to have a life, however diminished. My anger over this is immense; I am in survival mode, doing what I have to do. And that choice needs to be respected by physicians. Withdrawal at all cost doesn’t work for everyone, especially the long haulers. Thank you
Hi,
Thanks for the work that you are doing to get the word out about the dangers of benzos. I have just finished getting off of Klonopin 2mg that I was on at different doses for 22 years. I am still having withdrawals and working through them. I was lucky enough to find Dr Mark Leeds who helped me get off in 4 months. I am also a coach. When I am done with withdrawals I would like to get involved with getting the word out about this issue. I am planning on writing something about my experience. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help your cause.
Thank you. Essi Herman.
It’s a late night, and I have to work in the morning. However, I fell down the Benzos rabbit hole. Thanks for your post. My daughter has had mental issues all of her adult life. She has lived with proper medication (meaning legal) to include Clonazepam for many years, but due to changes in how the drug is prescribed, she is having much difficulty in finding it. I first started out to help her find to discovering that people try and do live without it. I am afraid for her withdrawal. She has suffered so much. Your recent post gave me a bit of hope that maybe I can find help to have her not take it any longer without too much more suffering. This website seems like a good place to start, and thanks to your words, I will maybe get a few hours of sleep. God Bless.